It is amazing how the first thought is 'where will my safe spot be?' and 'can I be safe here?'  My husband understands, thank goodness.  I feel for those who have partners that don't, how can someone live in a state of constant psychic arousal?  I know that it is not a possibility for me, but I know that there are many that are dealing with that constant state of hyperarousal and fear. 

I have already claimed MY room in the new house where no one is allowed without my permission.  I know it is not possible for others to do the same and I wonder how they survive.  I had a friend who would hit a certain level on her arousal meter and she would go out for a drive to cool down, another friend would bake, and another would clean and one would sleep.  I go into my room and hide.   Hopefully the Life Beyond Conference in Dallas will help me adjust to life without needing that safe spot, but instead, being able to go out in the world without my safety net and not be afraid of a free fall.  I am so looking forward to it!

At any rate we have a new house and I have a new, safe room claimed.  Now we just have to wait for closing.  Sigh...