I'm always amazed when I look back at all of the opportunities I've let slip through my fingers. Why didn't I know that was mine for the living. I have high self-esteem. I know that when I apply myself and keep a clear vision, I will succeed. Yet... That's what I know consciously. There is a part of me that must not be so sure, that gets worked up when life doesn't match it's experience. There is some thought process floating around in my head that HAD TO BELIEVE some wrong idea. It was the only way it could make sense of the world. Humans thrive on understanding what is going on around them. We really don't like surprises. We NEED TO KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. These distortions kept me sane and alive a long time ago. Now they keep me trapped and frustrated. But not so much anymore. That's what the life beyond conference is about, getting beyond those distortions. I can't wait!